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i am fucking lonely. this is depressing.
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[07 Mar 2009|11:06pm] |
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writersvention
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[16 Feb 2009|12:45am] |
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tonight on the way home, i took every back road i could find.
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[14 Feb 2009|10:51pm] |
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i'm finally realizing how miserable i am with each passing holiday.
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[14 Feb 2009|12:15pm] |
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i had heard the song and band before but really overlooked it all until nate played it over to me again last night. "the 59 sound" from the gaslight anthem hits dead on..
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[08 Feb 2009|12:24am] |
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genuinely unhappy with most everyone and everything.
this world is crashing down upon itself. you weren't there and you never fucking care.
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[12 Jan 2009|04:38pm] |
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straight edge
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[11 Jan 2009|04:41am] |
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it's about 4:40ish in the morning right now. the past few nights i've been out/up until at least 4. most of these nights i've gone painting. it's starting to seem like i'm happiest when i'm out by myself being within one foot of contact with a concrete wall.
i went to the trainyard today. that was the first time i had gone since my first time ever bombing (sometime in early 07?) it was weird, but kind of fun. it's like going to the same spot every week or so and being handed a clean slate, sometimes with previous work of others.
time to go eat some cheese and pretzel snacks.
"i don't see no fuckin' hope"
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[31 Dec 2008|01:19am] |
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hey, death, i'm a fucking mess.
can you stop this beating in my chest?
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[28 Dec 2008|05:48pm] |
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pretty positive i'm going through a "straight edge reign" period again. these come once every few months or so. it pretty much just involves me feeling nothing but contempt towards the abuse of drugs, alcohol, you know.
straight edge.
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[22 Dec 2008|02:41pm] |
the morton police are after me
lawlzor
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[11 Dec 2008|12:24am] |
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the whole recovery thing sounds pretty awesome when you look at the exterior of it. hangin' out, taking vicodin, no school, no work, etc.
but FUCK.. my knee hurts SO bad. it takes all i have to walk right now, i've only been able to poop one tiny turd since the surgery because i have to sit at a weird angle, my body is starting to feel weak from lying around so much, and i keep freaking out thinking i'm going to fuck up my knee before it heals..
lol
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[27 Nov 2008|11:00pm] |
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lonely
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[17 Nov 2008|06:44pm] |
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today, i walked a junkyard looking through shitty wrecked cars for anything of value and it started to snow. i was a little weirded out at first, however, because i feared it was actually just ash coming from the nearby factory. lol
Aaron Eschmeyer: A Beautiful Life.
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[10 Nov 2008|06:11pm] |
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every person in this room runs from pain, but embraces happiness. we are all seekers of the truth. we are all searching for the light and at the end of the day, everyone in this room is born to expire.
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[14 Oct 2008|12:32am] |
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i got a sick marilyn monroe poster the other day. it's set right above the head of my bed. that's about all i have to say. smoke weed.
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[02 Oct 2008|10:07pm] |
pretty positive a few significant people that i hung out with near everyday last year have decided that they just don't really need me in their life anymore.
glad to know i'm that easily disposable. fuck you.
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[24 Sep 2008|09:36pm] |
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hate to say it, but i'm lonely as fuck.
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[15 Sep 2008|08:55pm] |
on Friday, September 12th, a friend that i, at one point, saw every day for 4 years straight died of a heroin overdose.
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.
love you, chuck.
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[04 Sep 2008|10:03pm] |
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i often think of worst case scenarios and then find myself in them
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